Multiple Back Surgeries

I have degenerative disc disease and fused L3 down to S1. I'm now having problems in the same area again. Currently trying to manage the pain with morphine and percocets, and they don't work very well and it makes me groggy. Some days I can't get out of bed. I think about suicide as I don't think I can go on this way.

Surgery hasn't helped and I don't know what there is besides surgery. I've had physical therapy and it doesn't help, I've had steroid epidurals that don't help. It all started from going in for a layup and being undercut while playing college basketball. I was 19 at the time. This followed years of physical abuse in which I was forced to practice basketball many many hours at a time.

I've had to quit doing the things I like to do plus I had to quit a good paying job. Now I'm on Social Security Disability and trying to work part-time. I have to sleep in a recliner many nights. It makes me sad to read this. I just try to take it one day at a time. I feel for the rest of you and know what you are going through.