When I was 20 years old and a USMC officer candidate, I was in the best shape of my life. However, when I jumped up for an interception, while playing football, I felt a pop. Next it felt like I pulled a glute muscle.
Next morning the worst calf pain and lumbar pain ever. Long story short over the next 2.5 years, I went to 21 docs and had 2-mylograms, EMG's, nerve blocks, told to have surgery (although no herniation was found), PT, chiro's. It was to the point if I did not get relief soon, I was going to end my life.
I did not have a position that was comfortable. Pain all the time except when I slept. I was in college and spent the bulk of my time in bed looking at my ceiling with no answers. I noticed my calf getting smaller and went to a neuro-surgeon. He operated and removed a synovial cyst that had grown against my sciatic nerve anterior (so it was never seen on any test).
I figured this would be the end of my leg pain, but he said nerves are funny. The pain did not go away and he said it takes time. At the 1 yr post surgery mark, I said the hell with it and told myself that "my back is fine". I worked my ass off in the gym and the pain eventually subsided for 17 years.
Then 3 years ago, I was removing stumps and felt my back grab and for some reason, I feared that the calf pain may return. Sure enough it did and it was fierce again. I was very scared. Went the same route and MRI was normal. No herniations, good spacing, perfect....Yet pain.
I sought help from trigger point therapists, Rolfers and was told by all that I had muscle imbalances and trigger points. I was the tightest patient they ever saw. Every time I would walk, my legs and hips would tighten so much and my back and calf pain returned.
About 4 months ago, I started all the Sarno books and Scott Brady books about mind/body syndromes. It was funny. I saw myself on the pages and I did the emotional journaling. Within days I was a pain level 1-3 instead of 7-10 all days.
Over the last 4 months, I feel 95% most days. I had setbacks, but they last hours not weeks now. I have my life back and am so excited to be going back to work.
I was exhausted, emotionally drained and in pain all the time. I felt no hope only 6 months ago. I could not believe the mind was this strong, but it is.
Thank you Adam.